How Training for Triathlons Helped Me Overcome My Eating Disorder
  • February 20, 2018
  • I was a food addict and compulsive overeater for 30+ years. While Overeaters Anonymous, therapy, blogging and recovery books inched me towards healthy eating, it was triathlon that filled me with passion and relegated my food obsession to the backseat.

    I’m 49.  I have been an athlete my whole life — Little League baseball, then playing softball and basketball for my school teams.  During college and beyond, I joined a gym, and then began running when I was 28.  I discovered triathlon when I was 42; I was hooked.  Triathlon fulfilled me in mind, body and spirit.

    While I was lucky to be born with some natural athletic ability, I was unlucky to grow up in a home in which I did not receive the love I needed. I saw a dysfunctional relationship between my parents.  Unbeknownst to me, I turned to food as a coping mechanism at around the age of 8 or 9.  

    And not just food, but large amounts of food.  Copious amounts of food that I ate hidden from family and friends.  Food became an obsession.  What would I eat? Where would I get it? Where would I eat it?  Repeat.  Could I socialize with friends at a party or event with foods? Forget it.   The food was more important than the people around me.

    I felt terrible physically and mentally.  I’d vow, disgusted with myself, that I would stop the next day.  So many vows were broken.  My brain was not wired properly; Food controlled my life.

    When I was 40, I realized that I didn’t just have a “sweet tooth” for the past 30 years. I had an eating disorder – compulsive overeating.  I was a food addict.  I took this discovery as a fatal diagnosis and turned all my energy to recovering.   Though all of the elements I mentioned earlier were key in my recovery, triathlon cemented everything in place.  

    training for triathlons helped me overcome an eating disorder

    Being a type-A personality, training for triathlons was all-consuming.  I was fueled by the training, the nutrition, the racing, the gear and the camaraderie of a tri club.  I loved it all.  It was a sport that catered to all of my personal and athletic needs.  While I competed mostly with myself, I was also competing with other women in my age group.

    I naturally progressed to competing in sprints, then Olympics, then 70.3’s, then 140.6’s.  The longer the distance I accomplished, the more empowered I felt crossing the finish line.  I felt strong and confident.  

    Though I still struggled at times with the desire to eat too much junk, my nutrition needs quietly took over: How do I best fuel my body for training and racing?  I began to “eat to live” replacing a 30-year feeling of  “living to eat.”

    I learned in therapy that in order to stop thinking about food so much, I had to allow other things to fill my life.  Triathlon came into my world in the form of an email about a triathlon charity event.  Never a swimmer or cyclist, I stepped outside my comfort zone. I opened myself to a new sport, and as a result, discovered a passion, something that mentally and physically filled me and my needs.

    If there are addicts or recovering addicts in your life, whether it be alcohol, drugs, pills, food, or otherwise, please know that they are in a battle every day.  It’s not that they are weak or have no willpower; They have a mental illness.  There is strength in choosing to recover.

    When people try to reclaim their lives from an addiction, filling downtime becomes a huge problem.  They don’t know what to do with themselves when they are struggling to stay away from their triggers. 

    As a friend or family member, it would be helpful to encourage them to leave the house.  Join them in a favorite activity to take up their time, or better yet, help them discover a new and exciting passion. It could be an adult education class, a book club, joining a gym or engaging in a sport they haven’t thought about for a long time.

    Maybe when they were younger, they loved art or playing the piano.  Perhaps they thought about going back to school at one point.  Help them connect with their younger selves to remember what was fun or delighted them, and see if they can recapture the joy as an adult.

    Recovering from an addiction is hard work.  It takes a great deal to admit you have a problem and great strength to retake your life.  Discovering a new passion or rekindling an old one is a great tool for finding and maintaining recovery.  Training for triathlons was the passion that called to me. I’m forever grateful that I found it.

    Learn more about recovering from an eating disorder here.

    About Ronni Robinson

    Ronni is a member of the Sandwich Generation; she's the tired lunch meat layered between two teenage children and aging parents. She finds hours of cardio activity to be less exhausting than her combined caretaking efforts. Although Ronni grew up in South Jersey, she was pulled over the bridge in to the Philadelphia area by her husband over 20 years ago. She's a little freaked out that her oldest child left for college in August; the first step to adding Empty Nester to her resume. She looks forward to a healthy and happy 2018, full of family, friends, and fitness.

    15 thoughts on “How Training for Triathlons Helped Me Overcome My Eating Disorder

    1. Janet Felici

      Ronni, I appreciate your honesty in sharing your story. It was very inspiring and I hope that it can help someone else who is struggling with addiction ❤

    2. Linda N

      Ronni
      Thank you for sharing your honest journey. Your candidness will surely make others who are living in secrecy with addiction feel they are not alone. I’m certain your inspirational story will help direct others find recovery.

    3. Janet Davis-Haley

      Ronni- I have known you for so long and had no idea of your struggles! I always looked up to you as an athlete! We played basketball in junior high and you were the center while I was a guard (man I hate basketball)! Lol
      I too have a struggle that I never really figured out til recently- diet coke demon!!! I quit last week, it haunts me for real! “What di I drink now?” I hate water, dont drink coffee, tea, not a juice person (I have hypoglycemia) and I dont drink alcohol! Ahh!!! Thank you for sharing your story, it is so honest and raw! I started walking daily the day I gave up DC! Maybe someday I’ll see you at the starting line!!! Forever your friend – Janet Davis

      1. ronni

        thanks so much, janet. i really appreciate your kind words and support.

        while i was in the middle of my struggles, i really didn’t know they were just struggles. what did i have t compare it to, and how did i know i had a dysfunctional house? it took me until i was close to 40 to put it all together with the help of a therapist.

        have you tried seltzer? flavored water? good luck, my friend!

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