The Surprising Reason This College Runner’s Race Photos Went Viral
  • January 7, 2017
  • If you follow fitness accounts on Insta—and if you’re here, you probably do—you’ve seen countless before and after pics in your feed.

    In most “after” shots, waists shrink, new biceps bulge, abs appear.

    But recently, a college athlete’s post gained widespread attention for the opposite reason. Between the NCAA cross-country championships in 2014 and 2016, Michigan State University runner Rachele Schulist actually gained 20 pounds—and posted side-by-side photos to prove it.

    Left:NCAA 2014. Right: NCAA 2016. Look at the picture on the left. If in your mind this is what a “good” or competitive distance runner looks like, please, keep reading. The truth is I was very unhealthy. My teammates and coaches will tell you that I was not happy; I was disengaged with my teammates and missing out on life. My coaches warned me about the consequences of running in this unhealthy state, but seeing as my running was going well I ignored them and figured they were wrong. And in the fall of 2015 I paid for it when I found I had a stress fracture. Last year consisted for the most part of training in a pool and sitting on the sidelines while the rest of my teammates got to train and compete. Slowly my body healed and I could start to run again. But mentally, another battle had begun. Even though I knew being too small is not sustainable, it was hard for me to believe that I could achieve success and be the runner I used to be without it, and I allowed myself to believe this for the better part of this season. My coaches told me time and time again that I am still the same runner as 2014, just stronger now and have the talent to be successful, but whenever I looked back at what I used to be I was discouraged all over again. The better part of this season I allowed this lie to dictate my running, and my running suffered as a consequence. The day before our conference meet I was so discouraged and worn down from beating myself up I could only lay in bed, and decided that after this meet I was going to give up and quit running because I doubted I could ever be good again without being unhealthy. My coach could tell from my race plan that I was not mentally engaged and the night before Big Tens called me in to talk. He asked me at what point I was going to draw a line in the sand and put an end to whatever was holding me back from running the way I know I can. So I did. Because the truth is, the idea that you have to look a certain way and be thin to be a fast runner is bullshit. It’s a lie that a lot of people in the running community buy into. (Continued in comments)

    A photo posted by Rachele Schulist (@racheleschulist) on

    The pressure on collegiate athletes to be lean, fit, and fast is enormous. So why would Schulist take her weight gain to social media? Well, exactly because of that stress, she told me when I interviewed her for a Runner’s World article.

    “Being on the college scene—especially with social media everywhere—there’s a lot of small girls, and a lot of them are at the front,” she said. Type-A runners with ambitious goals—and sometimes, their fans and coaches—often believe they must be as light as possible to succeed.

    What you can’t see in the photos is the health of the woman inside. And in 2014, Rachele was far from healthy. She severely restricted her eating even while pushing hard in training. She obsessed about how little she could get away with eating and how much more she could run.

    In some ways, the strategy worked—she got faster and faster, until her body broke down. In the fall of 2015, she was diagnosed with a stress fracture in her kneecap. This rare injury develops over time, usually when runners weaken their bones by training too hard, not eating right, or both.

    Even before the physical injury, her mental state was perilous. At night, she cried. She felt sad and isolated, distant from her teammates. She lost her passion for the sport she once loved.

    As her fracture healed, she still struggled psychologically. It’s normal for serious athletes to gain a little weight when they’re hurt. Rachele had a hard time believing that if she didn’t shed those pounds again, she’d never be as fast as she once was.

    Her teammates and coaches assured her otherwise. She was a good runner not because she was so thin, but in spite of it, they said. If she nourished her body properly, she could be even better.

    At first, she didn’t believe them. After all, her race times were much slower than before her comeback.

    But for some reason, right before the Big 10 Championships in October of 2016, the message clicked. After a heart-to-heart with her coach Walt Drenth, she made a decision to show up and run her best—if not for herself, for him and the others who believed in her.

    She ran well enough at that meet to place ninth. And as her confidence returned, so did her speed. At the 2016 NCAA Championships, she ran a time only 12 seconds off what she’d run in 2014—and more importantly, felt happy and proud while doing it.

    So the idea that smaller means faster? Bullsh*t, she wrote in her Instagram caption. Her bravery and honesty in sharing her story resonated. Her post has more than 4,200 likes and 300-plus comments, including many from amateur and elite runners who’ve struggled with similar issues.

    Now, in her last year of running at Michigan State, Rachele aspires to stay strong, healthy and confident—and to inspire younger runners to do the same.

    “I always tell our girls: ‘Walk on that course, walk on that track like it’s a runway, and own it,’” she told me. “It’s so much more fun to be confident and proud of yourself than to worry about what other people are thinking. Because at the end of the day, you really can’t control what other people are going to say about you, and it doesn’t matter.”

    Now, most of us might not face exactly the same pressures as a college athlete gunning for a national championship. But in this season of resolutions, it’s worth remembering that punishing your body and yourself in pursuit of your goals—be they race times, strength gains or weight loss—doesn’t pay off in the long run.

    After all, health and happiness matter far more than social media likes or the approval of your super-fit pals. And anyway, as Rachele’s story proves, your friends and followers might just like you better if you’re honest and kind to yourself during your fitness journey.

    About Cindy Kuzma

    Cindy Kuzma is a freelance health and fitness writer and a contributing editor at Runner’s World magazine. She grew up in Texas and moved to Chicago to earn her master’s in journalism at Northwestern University; once she saw the lakefront running trail, she decided to stay. She’s finished 19 marathons and also loves lifting heavy weights, yoga, live music and running to the Green City Market from Andersonville and taking the bus home with a ridiculous haul of fresh veggies. Cindy is the producer and co-host on aSweatLife's podcast, #WeGotGoals. She’s written for Women’s Health, Men’s Health, Prevention, Shape and other publications as well—you can read her work at www.cindykuzma.com.